December 2009
59 posts
I still torture myself with pictures of who I was.
Fuck food. I will find a way to reward myself completely if I can get through tomorrow without consuming any. I’m always so close. SO close. I’ve been eating so much less, thank God. But tonight the Chinese food was ordered. I shouldn’t have ordered any.
Now I feel like any progress is gone.
I continue to be disgusting.
I am ashamed of what I’ve turned into. I am monstrous.
I am quicker than you think. Your falsities are nothing impressive. I have never skated this rink, but don’t think I won’t be aggressive.
Oh my heart, I want you to be strong. I need you...
I don't want to be lonely anymore.
Please, please, please.
Is This Real - Saosin
I don’t like being so lonely.
That is all.
I See You - Mika
Beautiful. I love you, violin.
Although dancing is better with curves, I prefer not to have them.
Consumed approximately 800-900 calories today. I’m pretty unhappy with myself. Tomorrow I’m lowering that number closest to zero as possible.
My nights are sleepless. Those reasons unknown. My days are endless. I’m still loveless, alone.
Where is my peace? I submit to defeat. There’s no release; no prince at my feet.
Tears burn these tired eyes. Nauseous, I shudder and tense. I long to join the fireflies. My life would then make sense.
For now I lay in this bed. Depression, my only company. I can never rest my head;...
Tomorrow it starts. My transformation begins.
I will be abstaining from solid food. I have never felt so determined.
I’m back.
albusdumbledore:
fall out boy - what’s this?
...
I am so fat. I can’t lose any weight. I wish that I knew why.
WIN!
Santa Claus face. :3
I have never felt this way. Hurting myself has not crossed my mind in a little over a year. This weight is bringing those thoughts back. It literally came out of nowhere and for no reason I can point out. My clothes don’t fit me. I don’t want to be seen. I am not like this, I’m not supposed to be heavy. My weight had adjusted over the summer in between 110 and 115. Not as light...
The key signs of an old soul
yerawizardharry:
Giving and caring often putting others first
Had a difficult romantic life often with much pain and disappointment
More than likely had a soulmate relationship
Things just seem to happen to you and around you, often becoming very dramatic through the seemingly extreme reactions of others
Events repeat themselves
Have trouble connecting with your family
Somehow know...
One fucking binge after another. It doesn’t stop.
“Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that...”
– Albus Dumbledore, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
I hope this quote is in the film.
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This quote better be in the film. I believe it.
“You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.”
– Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
Can’t things just be simple for once? I’m sick and tired of being tested.
I feel a sense of willpower.
Today I drank sips of 100% juice, water, and some SunnyD. I picked at dinner, a clementine, and had a Snickers bar. That’s it. My best friend said I look thinner. I disagreed. But if I keep this up, I will be. Less is more.
help?
Why is Tumblr’s HTML so confusing and weird? Someone help me. .__.
I want to make my theme look pretty, but I just don’t know how. *so inept*
I’m trying to function. Two or so hours of sleep isn’t working for me. I’m so tired I feel completely hyper and unlike myself. I need my bed, my fan, my pillows, my blanket. Desperately.
I hope your charm isn’t fleeting. Please, don’t plan on leaving.
:3
All I Want is You This Christmas - *NSYNC
I always had those chubby cheeks. Even when I was little to nothing. They were fine back then. Now I want them gone.
I hate this. I know that what I think is wrong, I know that I am ill. But I don’t want to heal yet. I’m not done. This disease isn’t finished.
I’m being overwhelmed. I miss my bones. I miss when clothes would fall off me. The curves are not flattering me....
10 things you want for Christmas:
1. A Macbook 2. Harry Potter and the Halfblood Prince DVD 3. Hot Topic giftcards 4. A gym membership 5. Hollister giftcards 6. Forever 21 giftcards 7. Black Uggs 8. Ugg boots 9. Slytherin attire 10. Ouran High School Host Club box set
9 musicians/bands you love:
1. Saosin 2. Owl City 3. The Cab 4. A Love Like Pi 5. Say Anything 6. Yellowcard 7. Justin...